"I see a man caught between angel and beast, and maybe that's what a vampire is."
A sensuous adult vampire romance with sexy blood-play and emotional turmoil.
*4.75 stars rounded up*
REVIEW
I was hesitant going into this because it was a "dark" vampire romance, and I wasn't sure just how out-there it was going to get. But it isn't a dark romance other than the main character being kidnapped at the beginning and a dash dubious consent.
It took a second for me to get into the storyline because there were some modern references that felt a little stark to me, I don't know why but seeing Lenore reference TikTok or talk about reading smut on her Kindle took me out of the world a little. However, from the moment Lenore was kidnapped I was hooked.
"Does the lamb feel beautiful before it's led to the slaughter?"
The way that Lenore reacted to every situation she was in felt extremely realistic. What cemented my appreciation for Lenore was the fact that when she was kidnapped, she fought like hell to get free. She didn't sit there like some heroine waiting for someone to save her, but instead attacked back until she physically couldn't. Lenore also takes a while to accept that there are vampires and witches in this world, that she is not human. I would have been annoyed if she accepted this at face value, and was grateful for the progression.
Lenore is a spitfire, and I loved her as a main character. She had vulnerabilities, she had doubts, and she grieved the life that she lost in becoming a vampire. But at the same time, she joined a new found family and learnt that she no longer had to feel alone in the world. Lenore was an emotionally complex character, she was messy, she was impulsive, and she made some irrational choices-but that just made her all the more relatable.
The romance-swoon-I loved it. Absolon is an extremely old vampire, and he has a lot of trauma from his past that prevents him from opening up to Lenore. Watching his defenses slowly fall around her and his protective (and possessive) nature rise was wonderful. I loved that he saw her as his equal, that he was able to respect when she needed time to grieve but also knew when to interfere so that she didn't put herself in danger. Solon isn't a good guyvampire, and he says that throughout the novel. He has a history that is steeped in death, and there is a beast lurking under his skin who wouldn't hesitate to kill every creature in sight. But despite that, he tries to do good by Lenore. He wants her to see him as something other than the monster he hates that he is, but also believes that he doesn't deserve her. I really loved getting know him as the book progressed and seeing all the secrets he kept come to light.
"You were never alone, moonshine."
The way in which Lenore slowly falls for Absolon was beautiful. She starts off hating him, but acknowledges that she is attracted to him. It is a slowburn, and I loved seeing that as she fell for Solon she was able to reconcile with the vampire side of her identity.
The sex is fantastic. There is a mixture of bondage, blood play, feeding, and roughness to their sex that made it hot as all hell. I will say that I did have to put aside my beliefs a little bit because of how easily Lenore orgasmed, but this was something she addressed herself and noted as strange. I chalked it up to the fact that they are vampires and she is essentially Solon's bloodmate.
I was tossing up between a 4.5 and 5 star rating because the ending did feel a little rushed. But the author's note at the end said that she hopes to write more books in this world, which led me to decide on a 5 star rating because the plot-holes I had issues with made sense if it was going to be a series.
Overall, I cannot wait to see what Karina Halle will do next. I have read one of her books in the past but will for sure be diving into her backlist now that I've read this novel.
Thank you Valentine PR for an ARC
Bonus Quote
"Vampires kill people."
"We have to in order to survive," he corrects me haughtily. "And we don't make a habit of it. Witches kill vampires, and sometimes they kill people too. Oh, and humans? Let me tell you about fucking human beings. They throw each other under the bus every single say, then have the nerve to say we're the soulless ones.
TRIGGERS
Cutting (for blood drinking), blood, torture, dubious consent, death, grief