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First published June 22, 2019
“You aren’t some other girl. You’re unlike any other girl. You make me wish things were different, that I was different, so don’t you ever apologize for being unlike anyone else. You’re exceptional.”
Riley has opened this window to what could be. She’s built a bridge between my reality and my fantasyland, and I can’t stop crossing it.
I’m obsessed. I constantly think of ways I can get out, how I can survive it and still be close to her. I imagine the pain of the beating I’d have to take, and the more I think about it, the less painful it becomes in my mind. I think it’s more than just a girl— Riley has opened this window to what I could be
You get what you see, and my world is dark right now. When the dark came for Riley she fought for the light. She’s a reason to fight now. I want to be like her. I want to live like her— do good things, work hard. I want to be with her. I want to love her… to get to love her
I told her she didn’t belong in my world once, but she did. She just didn’t belong in the darkness. She belonged in the light. I just never knew that she’d take me there with her. I never thought I belonged. I’m beginning to believe I do, though.
"I'm caught in a tornado of impossibles and nerves, and the only things left on my list are horrible sins."
"I just don't believe it's all he is."
"The collision would be deadly."
— "I told her she didn’t belong in my world once, but she did. She just didn’t belong in the darkness. She belonged in the light. I just never knew that she’d take me there with her. I never thought I belonged. I’m beginning to believe I do, though."
~ Epilogue | Tristan Lopez, 22-years-old
main hero (H), on the brink of turning 18-years-old, high school senior, member of the 57, closed off
main heroine (h), head strong, passionate about basketball, high school senior who just moved to the area, innocent
↪ Lauren & Tristan both told Riley to lock her door and car as the neighborhood is unsafe and anything can happen. What does Riley do instead? Keeps EVERYTHING unlock as a way to show she is not scared. Honey, keeping things unlock does not = safety. Safety 101: always lock your doors and cars so you are not victim to theft or home invasion.
↪ Tristan did not execute well trying to keep Riley away. He would ignore her, hoping that would send her on her way. It did not... In fact, it only fueled Riley to want to be at the basketball courts more. SHE SHAVED HER HEAD BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT IT WOULD MAKE TRISTAN ACCEPT HER.
↠ Riley's mother death: For ~80% of the book, it was assumed that Riley's mom walked out on them and just never came back. It is later found out, she did in fact walk out but she never moved away rather she was still in the area. Unfortunately, she was in the wrong place and that costed her life. I felt that the chapter of Riley and her father grieving the mother's death was added for a shock value. After that chapter, both Riley and her father were fine as if nothing happened. Like they went hot mess to fine all is well, real quick.
↠ Tristan's relationship with his mother: When Tristan was in the gang their relationship was very strained. In the last few chapters, it was mentioned that his mother visited him in juvie but nothing about if they were working on their relationship. This plot point of repairing a broken relationship overall fell flat.
↠ Tristan talking to Joker's mom: It was a telling > showing that he wanted to talk to her about Joke. It was mentioned she was going to come with Tristan's mom to visit. In his inner monologue he mentioned he wanted to apologize. It was all telling and none of it came about. I was looking forward to seeing this interaction but it was all a telling of wants and no showing at all.
↪ HEA: possibly. I wanted to see a happy ending with Tristan having Riley because she truly made him happy. Although I did not like Riley, they worked in a way as he could trust her and she pushed him to be a better person and I respected that. The epilogue left their story open with the chance that they may find the right timing and be together.
↪ Several plot lines fell flat throughout the book, specifically, related to Tristan.
↪ Riley was very stubborn and difficult to connect with for majority of the book. This book may not be for you, if you find a character annoying and frustrating for being strong willed and stubborn 99.9% of the time.
↪ Trigger warnings: violence and gang involvement. Joker's death and fights are written somewhat descriptive and may be triggering.
I knew every bit of this was wrong. I know it’s wrong. I hate it. I hate my fate. It’s there, though. I’m married to it because of the place I was born, the man who fathered me, his friends and his choices, and my mother’s weaknesses. All I can do is make the most of it, and maybe find a little happiness somewhere on the fringes.
I’m walking two paths beginning right this minute, and I can’t let them cross. The collision would be deadly.
“You are my test, Riley. My temptation. My mother says you’re the light, and I want to stand in it with you, but…”
“So stand with me,” I interrupt.
“You don’t have to take this job, Tristan…the one that says you’re a bad guy. It doesn’t suit you.”
“You’re unlike any other girl. You make me wish things were different, that I was different.”
“You shouldn’t do things like this with a guy like me,” he says, his voice rough but the pleading tone evident still. He hates himself, and he’s denying himself, but I see more than the boy in a gang.
“You’re the only boy I should do things like this with,” I say, looking deep into him and shifting until my forehead rests on his.
Riley has opened this window to what could be. She’s built a bridge between my reality and my fantasyland, and I can’t stop crossing it.
”I see you, Tristan. Oh . . . I see you.”
”I see your map, and I’m begging you to just look at this alternate route I’m showing you.”
”You’re the light, and I want to stand in it with you.”
”You’re my person.”
I’m broken...this is so real it hurts.
Riley is the new girl of the neighbourood, Tristan is the boy who can't run away from there.They become kinda friends,they kinda have feels for each other but they are on different paths and their futures can't be more divergent.
Could Riley's light bright Tristan's dark and hopeless life?
I usually don't read books about mafia or gangs because these subjects are too close to home for me. I don't appreciate the "romantic" view some authors show in their works but Ginger Scott has once again pleasantly surprised me with her realistic and honest writing.
This goes straight to my favorite books of 2018 list...do not miss it!
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