Color My life with the Chaos of Trouble

Monday 20 June 2011

#EndSH day

This is my expeirence with sexual harassament - i am only posting the unique ones - i get harassad daily

a couple of days ago - i pulled over an all nighter my hair is in a bun and i am wearing baggy clothes because of my exams the bus drives me to my street and i have to walk a distance across the street a really nice volks wagen driving and i noticed the driver is slowing down , he is an old dude late 40's or early 50's and i live beside a school so probably he's picking up his kids or something he compeletly stops just to tell me how good my boobs look in a comepletly insulting way , what i did ? nothing i was shocked that he is old enough to be my father and still is doing so . i wished i was strong enough to pick up something from the street and flat his tire or bust his windows, however i didn't.

a year ago i was in a public bus and a guy who was standing beside me kept discribing to me what would he do to me if i slept with him i was looking away and i cried the peopel heard what he was saying and the only thing another guy said was lower your voice maybe the driver will hear you - i looked at him and i thought if i screamed or anthing he will call me crazy and i have no money to go down from the bus also no one will do anything to him  plus he is stronger than me maybe he will beat me or touch me . oh god forbid the idea that this creep will touch me . i wished i had a spary to apply it to him when i am leaving, however i didn't.

about a year and a half ago i was in mekkah with my dad and his wife doing umrah. in umrah i didn't wear black abbayah like the rest i wore an esdal with removeable head cover and i applied a pandana on my head. i also wore leg warmer so my legs won't show. i went alone to fill a bottle with zamzam water when i guy came beside me and started  talking to me . i didn't talk back when he asked me where are you from
and i was like i am from egypt so he got friendly as if egypt is a hot ticket for him. he tried to touch me and asked me when is he going to see me again so we can be alone. i turned around and said my dad is here and if he heard you; you'll go to jail today. honestly i scared they would say it's because you're not wearing black like everybody else or because your neck is apearing or because you talked to him. i wish i was brave enough to scream and gather people or i had faith in people's minds,however i didn't.


2 years ago i was walking in ta7reer street in dokki from oprah . i had a date with my boyfriend back then. while i was walking calmly and i did nothing to anyone i was dressed ordinary. when a man who was walking across me slowed down and unzipped his pants he decided to show me his dick . i was shocked that he would do that in the middle of the day in the middle of the street . i speed walked so i can see less of him . when i meet my boyfriend; he noticed i was shocked and sad he kept asking what's wrong with me when i told him he got mad so he asked me why didn't you call me. okay let's say i called him . he would have never made it on time and the guy is not going to wait for him also when the guy sees someone with me he will zip up his pants. i wish i had my boyfriend with me or i had an electric shock so i can paralyize the guy's dick with it, however i didn't.

4 years ago i used to live in haram. in our street there was an institue and my uncle used to live in front of it so i used to feel afe because everytime i pass my cousins will be there and nothing bad will happen to me because they will help me. however there was this day where my cousins were not there and a i was walking in the middle of the day when around 5 guy surronded me and started laughing and telling me to come with them and threatning me. i looked at the ground and thought to myself that i will die today in the middle of the street in front of everybody i was so scared they 5, they are stronger than me and no one will ever help me. this time a brave secuirty gard came and beat them with his stick and he walked me home. i wish i was strong enough or i had something that i beat them with, however i didn't.

I wish i did everytime i didn't.

a girl starts to expirence sexual harrasment as soon as she grow a pair of boobs. i can go on and on about the metro harassament where you can't tell them anything cause they would talk back and you're never as rude as them . i also can go on and on about police men who harasse you when going to your home late or even in the middle of the day. i can go on and on about downtown vendors and about any pig who harasse you or shuts up when he sees you harassed. however instead i will ask to stop objectfying women. even my mom a 49 year old woman is being harassad in the street.

Written while listening to : Aziz Maraka - Ma bagolek Assef
You should listen too : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lxaUs2i0ANo

Cairo, June 20th 2011 #EndSH day
07:02 PM

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