I am completely and utterly floored. As I write this review, I have a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes. That was, without a doubt, the most beautiful, heart wrenching , touching story I have ever laid my eyes on, and I PRAISE you miss Carian Cole, for your artistry. Everything about this was spectacular, but I'll start with a few things.
First of all, my main girl, Penny. What a wonderful, built up, honest character. watching her grow up from her little self into a loved, whole character was something so powerful and such a beautiful journey to witness. Her characterisation, her skills, her mind, everything about her made her special. Her struggle and her capability to love was so magical, and it’s something that felt so SO real.
Closely connected to that wonderful girl, is the absolute heart stopper, the man, the myth, the legend himself, Mr Alex Fox. Not only was he one of the hottest book boys ever, he felt so kind, so loving and so, so obsessed with his girls. What a man. He was a guy who committed and NEVER turned his back on that, and it’s something so beautiful.
I know I sound like a bit of a broken record at this point, but I truly cannot emphasise just how spectacular this book truly was. I don't cry a lot, but this had me in tears. Not(just) tears of hurt, but tears of pure excitement and happiness and overwhelm, simply at getting to see this well developed and fleshed out characters thrive and find one another.
Like most of Cole's other books, this one has a writing style that flows like a river, and characters that seem realistic and humane, ones who are just like one of us. For me, that is probably one of the biggest markers for a book I will love, and for that I will be coming back to this soon.
This masterpiece was so unique, so powerful and carried with it so many questions I didn't even know I had. The love shared by the characters in this book was nothing short of monumental, and it was this time stopping, eternal force that I cannot believe I got to witness occur on page.
This was packed full of some of the deepest emotions ever, the angst, the pining, the push and pull, the taboo, the PAIN. It was perfect. There were so many twists and turns and things I didn't see coming, and there were so many little references to details that tied the story altogether is a gorgeous, silky little bow.
Penny and Alex have become one of my all time couples, the ones that stick in my brain like molasses and spread through my every waking thought, and damn me if i don't love it. I cannot even express how amazing it truly was.
If I could recommend anything to anyone, it would be to go and get this book right now. It's one of a kind, so special and a mind boggling experience that makes you think about everything you believe in. Like always, I highly recommend checking a content warning as it always helps you gauge how you’ll feel with a book, but other than that, go in blind. It's an experience that should wash over you and cleanse you from the bad, providing you a solace in a world outside your own. That's what it was for me. magic. escapism. my perfect novel. I'll be back to read again in the VERY near future.